yah know...someone must not like me up there. i mean they must have it out for me or something...i mean...things really couldent get any worse from what im seeing..well okay so i could..but it wouldent really matter after that i guess...you know id just live in the shadows afraid of anything that changes the cold hard facts that ive grown up on. but hell what can you do? shit if i know. i would love to change the shit thats happened to me...but fuck it theres nothing that i can do. if i had a time machine that would make everything better. i would warn him..dont swim. check out your heart. but would it really have done anything? i bet it was destiany...but still i would have liked to talk to him once more...but i cant. pretty much fucked if i do fucked if i dont. so hey..who really cares about my feelings anyways. they just took him cause he was awesome and i loved him. thats the only reason why. god fuckers. i hate them. i want him back damnit! give him back to me! you had no right to take him!!!!!! I FUCKING HATE YOU!!!!!!!!