It feels pretty lame posting in this nowadays. Maybe it's because I have nothing to say. Most likey. I need a friend. I mean a real friend, not a fake one. Someone who can put up with me no matter what I do, who will always be there and never leaves. I haven't got one like that unless you count Eagle and Gecko. Although I hate to admit it but they don't exsist. It would be cool if they did though. Latey I've been thinking about what someone i would consider to be a 'perfect' partner, it's slightly disturbing, now that I think about it, how I would want them to be. I would want them to be like a slave that couldn't speak. Someone I have complete control over. Not just sexualy, but physicly and mentaly too. I wouldn't want them to speak, because if they could them they could argue back and I wouldn't like that. I would want them to be with me all the time, never leave me, and do whatever I wanted. I know it's selfish, and cruel, but it's what I really want. One thing they could be sure of is that I would always protect them and never hurt them or leave them. I would want someone I could protect. I wouldn't want a protecter, because that's what I would want to be. I guess this is a way of not being hurt or lonely. Because I HATE it when people leave and turn against me. I don't like it when people have free will, I want to control them. Is that too much to ask?