No one is online now...earlier Dennis, Izzy, Henry, Wrendy..Kelsey..they were all on, now they aren't and it's making me boooooooored!! But Dennis was acting so boring, He never talks to me..well he does, he just says hey, whats up..nm...you? And that's about it..but Henry says he got kicked out of Acres of Wildlife cause he was too loud..that's kinda funny..and yet, kinda bad-boyish...weird..and then Henry was just like, "Dennis isn't talking to me, he's probably talking to his 'girlfriend'", and I was like....He has a girlfriend? and Henry said that Dennis met this girl from Mass. while camping and w/e....and I was like...uh okay, but then Izzy asked him if he still liked me (I didnt tell her to, she did all by herself, I didnt even know she did) and he said.."Yea", I wish he would show it, it's easier to see it when he shows it, it's better to see it and know it then not see it and think that he doesn't like me anymore when it's the opposite of truth... School Tomorrow!! Hoping to make new friends, and keep the old!! I hope I at least have some and most of my classes with one or more than one of the following people that are on my team: Dennis Cody Izzy Vanessa Vanessa and I seem to be friends now, we aren't really ignoring eachother much anymore..a couple of days ago she was just like, "Oooh! I'm so excited I can't wait to see if you go out with Chad..!!!" and I was just like..."uuh, doubt he's thinking of me...like I'm thinking of him..." and we just kept blabbing...yeah......yuuuuuup...okay then..... I wish someone would sign on!!! I have to go to bed early tonight and i really hope I don't look tired tomorrow.. :-( Like with dark circles under my eyes and bags and stuff..that would suck, and make up doesn't help me, I'm a help less victim of wake-up-looking-tired-and-ugly Syndrom....I'm Not Okay....I Promise...(Hehe, I love You My Chemical Romance, Gerard rocks maaaa world!!♥) I miss Chad...he is so cute and funny and nice...I wish I could have a relationship with him...but Ummm..hello! I never see him, that time I saw him at the campground was just luck...or an answer to a prayer..but The next time I see him will be in Highschool..and I really want ot see him, just like at the grocery store even..and I want him to remember me and like walk up to me and be like, "Hey, I met you at camp. Right?" and then we keep talking and stuff and he gets my number and calls me and love takes it's course, but maybe there isn't love there like I wished there would be......Maybe there is, but probably not, I SERIOUSLY doubt that he has once thought of me since I've left the campgrounds, why would he? The only reason I do is cause I knew of him before and stuff..but to him I'm probably just a girl he met at camp during the summer who always stared at him and he had no idea why she was always where he was....the arcade...pub...store....lake..."I wonder?" he says to himself, when the truth is I knew of him before I met him and he knew who I was and I liked him before too, sucks how I can feel so strongly about him and at the same time feel so strongly about the fact that I feel he doesnt think of me when I thnk of him..(Hence: The pop ups...I think of you but I know you dont think of me...no duh) Well...funny how I ramble about something that will eventually crumble and about someone who will never know how I feel about him...too bad I'm too shy and I want him to do all the work when deep down and up front I voice this: I don't think he feels the same way, so why would he make the move? I keep on thinking, "Okay, since I dont think AT ALL that he thinks of me the same way, why dont I just make the move?" Answer: rejection, It scares me, I dont even want ot risk a heart break, but then again wanting to go out with him even if he liked me back could result that way, but immediate rejection would be worse cause I wouldnt have a bigger chance for him to understand me... well my arm hurts....Gonna stop typing about something that isnt even in my future...NOW!