well i havent wrote in here ages and i think its time..why because i had probably the time of my life from the dates of april 28- may 4th (which was my birthday)..and it was the time of my life i was iffy on going but when i came back its hard to be here i go to sleep hoping that when i wake up i was back on the boat..living the most amazing life with amazing people and crew..we went to islands, bon fires, skits, fishing, digging just lounging around doing anything..i have over 200 pictures from everything and i look at them and ball.lol i loved it..the people on the trip when i left i was like uhhh..i dont know how this will be but after all in the end i was as close to them as my family they knew alot about me and i knew alot about them..my cabin mates were my most favorite people in the whole world the bailey and katie and they made my stay there like 1 google plus better..there amazing people i have never seen either of them as happy as they were on that trip in awhile..on the bus i sat with joel..alex..cam(good old emo/punk buddy) and shane..i love shane.lol he slept on the floor with me on my birthday i just laid my head on his stomach and we just talked about everything..friends guys and such and todd and i had the most amazing time..excpet for on the way home..it was fun but 1 thing bugged me the most just because of some stuff but i cant really say and ughh it was just peer amazing ohh yeah how can i forget i sat with katie at the front while she was getting sick as hell..im a good friend oh i know.lol..but we got there and i saw the boat and just about stopped and died it was amazing..the scenery behind it..it was in new westminister..right next to burnaby what could get better..nothing at all..i went threw burnaby and it was hard to bite my lip and not drop a tear i love that place..its amazing but we got on the boat with my massive packed to the extreme bag and just went and learned about the boat and by the next day i was living the world that i have always dreamed of..since i was 5 i've wanted to live on a boat..like not like edgewater but some what like that..and once i got there it was amazing..by 3rd day we did so much i have pics with almost everyone and ughh..im crying just reading this..and then well there was this one night..which i must say bailey i love you like no other your a effing tank..you ugh i cant say it how amazed i am of you because of our like tear night.lol i heart you..hahah but the girls in c cabins had this 6 hour cry fest of the last night..we went through everything we missed and everything that we have done to hurt people and i have to say that was the night of my life i re-united with people i have never before and learned so much now this may sound gay but mrs.llyod this one teacher that i love..actually shes not really a teacher shes more family..she probably knows more then my mom and i treat her better then my mom..and well she went on this trip and i cant belive im leaving her..she was there for the days at school..where i came to school balling because my mom was sick or because i had a badd week with a guy or when i wasnt friends with my 2 best friends she was there to just sit there and listen to me and just make sure im still on track and i cant explain how much she means to me..like its amazing most people would be like..teacher..amazing..no..but mrs.llyod..shes not like any other teacher i have met like i said to me shes family shes just peer amazing..i will never forget her..and well yeah thats my speal about that crying night..and well this whole trip i was crab queen i must say im inlove with crabs haha i love playing with them..there so funny..and yes people will read this..im the mac who made the dumb crab puke..lol yes one night we were camping and amanda gave me a crab and i was sitting and playing with it..making it fly okay..and i made it puke all over me..it was the funniest thing i have ever done in my whole life.lol..but anyway all i can type was that theres nothing better that has ever happend to me..it changed the way i am and how i treat people now..but okay well there was person..okay guy....before i left i was terrified that i would come back and he would be with some other girl and back to the ignoring stage..and then i would have lost him..but i came back thinking on the bus..what would happend and i came back and it makes me frustrated because for that week i really found out who i really liked and actually cared about and there were 2 guys..like to make this better the trip showed *guy wise* who i cared about actually..and there were 2 guys that didnt go on the trip and i miss them like no other..and well theres ashton..i like him so much everyday at lunch i see him and he makes my day.lol..hes always there to make me laugh.lol..but then theres this other amazing person..that i think ugh i cant explain him hes amazing and when i say amazing i mean it..he knows the most about me hes one of those guys you trust with everything and you know that when you ask them to stop or something you know they will..and he makes me soo happy like we have had our moments and i dont see him much but when i did it was amazing..he made me happy as hell..and i dont know i was the most worried about him..just because we dont go to the same school and well yeah you know how that could go..and well i dont know he makes me frustrated when i talk to him because i talk to him and i just imagine being with him but thats what im scared of..because i know those kind of relasonships can ruin an amazing friendship and i just dont know what to say to him and such..ugh long story..but yeahh well it was my bday not to while ago..and i had amaazing b-day especaillu from katie and bailey..they got me an awesome shirt..that says mac is queen i love it i wore it all weekend hahah its amazing thats so much girlies your amazing people...well i have wrote alot i think so i shall go and go into my world of music.. xox queen macc