okayy so im re-writting this entry cause im sick and tiredd and not feeling good at all.everytime i walk around i just get dizzy and feel like im going to pass out and for some reason the tips of my fingers hurt and my face hurts..lol.its weird it feels like i have huge black eyes but i dont know anyways ive been super busy lately.with basketball and volleyball and training and its just insane at time thats sometimes it gets so busy that im glad i get sick so i can just lay in bed for 10 hours and no one bugs me about having to get up to go somewhere. its just so crazy cause people always mention to me and how much im a dedicated player to my sports and stuff which i am. I want to succed in everything and be the best to my potential but sometimes its getting so crazy like basketball im going to be happy when its done.the sport is done just cause it runs you down so much like girls on my team who dont play other sports are so run down. and like im getting run down to the point i just get sick or i cant sleep at all get i get sudden energy spurts aha.but anyways.dang i really shouldnt have deleted all my entrys i had over 100 and i decided to delete them one day so i dont dwell on them but now i kinda wish i never did that it makes me sad to just have like 10 or 15 entrys..lol aghhh but anyways school i guess has been going so well..i guess sorta..okay i lied its so hard and frustrating i hope i never have to do 3 cores at once, its soo frustrating wow..science 10 which is freakingg hard.well it isnt just i tend to get really lazy and i give up reallyy easily in school so its hard to not just be like okay im skipping..cause last semester i skipped a whole month of a class.and like once you skip onces its like a addiction cause you know you can leave so you just make yourself do it but anways and im also doing math 10 pure..i hate hate hate hate it soo much i dont understand like okay i will think im doing so good and on homework or just working i understand it so much but then i get to a test and choke..like wtf..i dont understand how some people can get 100% on things it makes me sooo frustrated sometimes i wishh i could like tradee something for smartness.cause really the places i want to go when i hit university and stuff with my marks im going no where in life..well actually i am..yeah..striahgt into a truck..being a truck driver fuck. its just so frustrating seeing people who can do soo good just drop it and not do there work when someonee like me who would KILLLLL to be naturally smart wouldd do there work ahahaha i sound like sucha keen but i dont even care.lol but anyways ugh i hate days like this where you want to go out.like i have volleyball and i actually feel like going but im just not in good shape to go and i dont feel so good but udgbskabfkjsbfskjbfdksjbdf lifesss dumb right now but omgg kay actually wait no i dont feel like writting more im off to sleep again so maybee i will write in here again..later..