its the point shes hurt.and its not the first time..and its my fault.if i didnt just pick up the phone and call.this wouldnt have happend..why am i like this.why is everything happening.i cant stand it.. they say its not my fault.have they felt what i feel right now.have they..i wouldnt have been up till 5 in the morning shaking till i couldnt walk.if i just called.why.. i dont understand whats going wrong. i try. i fail i try i fail. ive had this call before.but why is she lieing i dont know.why is she saying things to me that its not my fault.i should have called..