ahg..im having one of those days where you want to go out but you attempt to get ready and you just fail and everything bugs you . evenn the littlest things just one of those days.. so i decided to come on here and vent a bit lol . but yeah my summers been great i've loved alot of it i have gone threw school and did well and now im just doing the normal hanging out i have gone to a large amount of concerts but its just fun like its not a busy busy summer where i have to pretty much write everything down to remember i have something to do i just do what ever comes and yet i still have my days where i sleep till 3 and just sit around listen to music and watches movies or t.v episodes over and over and its just relaxing. gregers.bailey.coopie all came home yesterday and im so happy there home i missed them alot even though bailey and gregers were only gone for a week.but it litterally felt like 4 years no joke i dont know why just there so much fun and i love it they can always put a smile on me and then coop came home from seattle and denver he called me . to see if i could do something i was sooo down when my mom said no .like that kid and i fight more then i think anyone i know and it can get pretty bad at times but it usually all turns out well later ..hah but he called and i didnt realize who it was and then i was like COOPER? and he was like yes and i just started to laugh i had so much to tell him and so i went to a stupid family bbq with a family friend and such and i got bored out of my mind enough where i just sat on the deck and stared at the next door neighbours party..."why cant my family have friends that have kids my age..not my brothers?" so my mom finally gave in and said i could go. by that time i was ready to jet so she drove me over and i saw bailey.gosh shes amazing litterally we've become closer this summer and its great i always laugh and smile and all that jazz when im with her yet when im with her i dont care what i do ,im just myself but anyways what else has been new well i was with katie for 3 or 4 days this week that was effing hilarious and fun..i think im just gonna keep that story to who ever i tell..its to long and hard to type cause ill start laughing.. but anyways tyler and i are talking again.pft ..im talking about boys..why..why do i even care? i dont even know anymore.like its me ..im sooo happy just being me and not having to have that commitiment yet.like i see my friends and like its katie.chad/ bailey .coopie/ joel. meag-o/ gregers..ashton hah and me and i like it i just like being by myself or in other words..single hah i dont know why i have been thinking about it like i started talking to tyler again i dont even know why i think a part of me just missed him..cause when we did talk alot he gave me a ton of attention..maybe thats it? im not sure but like i dont know what it is with guys but they just have something in them that wants you to keep coming back to them even if they can do the worst in you.and i dont know but like tyler hm how do i put it.well i've barley ever got into the deepest talks with him like i do with evan but hes rushy and clingy type of person like we've been tlaking for maybe a week and hes already told me stuff that i dont really want to know.like katie and i were talking and like a part of me i think is scared to get attached..just cause i know whats going to happen and like woww this is getting confusing but like i look at my friends and they show me everything i do want and what i dont want.which i like about them cause there all differnt in there couples every single one of them have there own differnt ways and i look at that and i see what i could be like and i dont want that yet.i dont ..but yet a part of me is saying that i just want someone to be there for me at times.where i just need someone..but i dont know i just dont know why i need to get into this right now.. so anyways shelby..shes this girl we started to get close towards the end of year she was a good friend and she ended up moving after we started to get close and i liked her.just cause she had that edge my bestiess doo..which now that i look at it..im GLAD they dont hah .but she moved to kelowna and i never really belived her just cause her story changed alot and then i heard somestuff and finally belived her but a friend told me something that shes doing right now and it scares me alot.like shes far and stufff and i want to know if its true but im scared to justy tell her what i feel and like how do i ask her type thing and i just hope that she learns fast.i dont want her regreting stuff.cause i know right now shes messing alot of things up.. but i dont have much else to say so i must leaveee loves loves lovess