agh i want to write here but i just dont really know what to write about.. how could i have something to write about i sat at home listening to our lady peace the whole day aha and watched coach carter at 4:30 in the morning.oh my.i cry in that movie every single time and then maybe tonight i should watch OC season 1 allll of it that shall be fun..i really havent done a day like this for a long time and im glad i did.lol kinda in a way but anyways what shall i talk aboutt.. well?..all ive really been doing lately.is volleyball.training and basketball..agh not to exciting im telling you..except for this optimum training thing im doing with my volleyball team its actually funny and fun and healthy at the same time but i went and saw him and he talked about my strength and flexibility and like weight and such.and i need to lose alot of weight except for me.what he said was that im not as strong as i could be..which is so true i belive it.like im strong but i could be so much more like he went to do these chin up things and i couldnt even do 1 ahah KJ couldnt either so i wasnt sooo embarrassed but we still were but at the same time my flexability is actually really good.which is kind of weird cause i always thought i was the most un-flexible person alivee..but i guess i lied?.its fun though im going to be in such good shapee and i can lose alot of weight in the areas i need to in a healthy way and not get sick or anything..well actually he said i probably wont be changing my weight to much cause the fat in my body is going to end up turning in to muscle..and i was like shitt..but see i dont want to be buff.i just want to bee equal and stuff and i told him that but anyways im just rambleing..agh but volleyball is sooo good omggg i love it with a passion the only thing is latelyy its been so painful..like shin splints fuckk..so kelly said i need to take a break from basketball for 2 weeks so that im full strength for the prospects camp in assinaboina on feb 3 and 4..you have no idea how excited i am for that omggg hah.so basketball can wait for an opportunity like that. but anyways.. lately ive been thinking about university and college and stuff and what i really want to do and like ive been talking to my dad about it and stuff and just getting ready like starting to get an idea of really where i want to go.like i already know and have my heart set on a volleyball scholarship to somewhere in the states to be able to play NCAA level would be amazing oh my but yet playing at a university in canada would be just as good either or.but like we've started to get a path going for me and such to get to the level i want to achive at and while we are doing this it kind of scares me.like i dont know how tohandle it like i do but yet i dont.like its scary.im growing up so fast, i dont want to grow up i want to be 12 again...there were barley any problems except for best friends and who was your #1 fav and you could never choose agh i miss it so much but anyways.. i guess i ended up just ramblelling on about nothing just cause i wanted to write something new in here ahah anywaysss 'Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate; our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world, there is nothing enlightened about shrinking, so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We were all meant to shine, as children do. Its not just in some of us, its in everyone and as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fears, our presence automatically liberates others.'