hey everyone! MERRY LATE CHRISTMAS!!!! HAPPY EARLY NEW YEAR!!!! lol. the past few days have been sooooo crazy. im so sick rite now and tomorrow i wanna go shopping. xmas eve ever i cut myself and then xmas eve i cut right through my old cut so now it looks like an X. the one i made on xmas eve tho hurts like hell. it still hasnt healed. :/ on xmas day i was gonna cut a nice big deep one but i didnt. we went over my cousins grandparents house and i didnt wanna go so i had a fit. i didnt noe wat to wear blah blah blah my usual. my mom pulled me by the hair and picked me up i broke loose and i was crying like ive never cried before. i think i threw a tantrum fit. ummm today was my moms bday. yesterday was blah. i hung out with one of my so called best friends and ill admit it we had alot of fun together but still its not the same and sometimes she says these things where its like i just wanna yell at the top of my lungs STFU U DONT NOE wAT ITS LIKE TO BE ME! but i dont. eh idk i hope i get better soon. i hate being sick. especially now when i could be going to malls and the city and stuff. anyways just in case i dont update till later on.... ....HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!