I just looked down and saw I have even more cuts on my arms and hands. I dont know why but i have been getting cut alot lately it doesn't bug me anymore, and i dont feel physical pain like i used to sometimes it actually feels good but not often.I got a big cut on my wrist today at work. I scraped it and it hurt for a second then 0 minutes later I looked at my arm and it was bleeding still. I went out riding around with this girl from work after I got off at 11:30 and I think she likes me now. I asked if I could go on a delivery with her and get high. She said no until she heard the getting high part and now she says she islooking forward to seeing me at work next time we work together. Thursday I went riding around with a different girl from work and got high. I enjoy actually making friends I get to see alot. My friend thinks I have a crush on her Because i said I had to talk to her when we went to get high. He is so innocent its not funny. when me and him left there we went to a friend's house and he went outside because i was drinking and he saw a bong n the room so i pulled out a sack and gave out bong hits. I need a girlfriend but i dont think i could work a relationship with all my female friends. My friends dont like girls I like and girls i like usually hate my friends. What am I supposed to do? maybe find a fuckbuddy? speaking of which the otherday my neighbor called me over to her porch and said neighbor: How old are you? me: 19 neighbor: are you married? me: no neighbor: You got a girlfriend though dont you? me: No i dont I dont have not enough time for a girlfriend. neighbor: So what are you doing now? me: I am sitting around relaxing until I have to work. neighbor what time is that? me: 5 pm neighbor: You should come over here after you get off work. me: I might not get off til late so i dont know. I gotta go get ready soon. So I am going to go. neighbor: You better stop by after work. bye. If none of you know my personality I didn't go to her house after work. part of it is there are always too many people I dont know over there and I am cautios of people I dont know. it is still funny that my neighbor wanted me over at her house late at night. I am currently ranked 118 out of roughly 1300 people in tennessee in magic: the gathering. I beat someone the other day that was ranked 67 and now he is like 80 something hahahaha. Got paid ut am almost broke again(dont know how I have any money?) leave me comments I like to hear peoples oppinions. besides communication leads to friendship and everyone can use more friends. I am out lata