cant sleep. my mind is racing at the speed of light. different thoughts about different things. late at night is when i think the most. there isnt must else to do but think. i get to reflect on where my life is right now and where i see it going. i normally dont get really far before i fall asleep. i know where my life is but i dont know a damn thing about where it is going. as for right now im fine with the way things are. content. for the first time in a long time im content with me. no worries. akunha matata. never have i ever been able to just sit at home and just sit and lay and it be okay. that i could just lay and have me time without freaking out thinkin i was slippin in a deep depression. its a new feeling. im not positive where i got it from but i think i know where. i have a friend that over the past years that has just said fuck it. i am who i am and get the fuck over it. i look up to her. shes so care free. so independent. so gina bina. i love her. shes my best friend. i am the way i am today because of her and i want to say thank you. you helped me realize that i dont have to worry about everything. its okay to let go and have a little fun. get my fuckin panties out of my ass and take them off and throw them across the room. you are my signifcant other. --------- we will grow old together i promise, roxanne. *A true friend never gets in your way unless you happen to be going down.* -Arnold H. Glasow