i really fucked up. bad. im a bitch. a fucking bitch. she was right. i should tell the truth more often. the truth shall set you free i told him the truth. i told him what happened. it was hard. how do you tell someone who you know loves you with all their heart that you let someone kiss you. and he doesnt hate me. he does not hate me. hes upset. (yes) hes sad. (very much) hes disappointed. (more than ever) i let him down. i let myself down. i dont deserve someone so amazing, and loving in my life. he deserves better. im trash. and i realize that. i murder what could of been the best relationship of my entire life. ------------ im gonna marry that boy someday