I was sitting around writing my english paper for Akin on a Paradise Lost in my life. It was strange I couldnt think of what to write about. Not because I have had no loses in my life but because I couldnt decide on which one to write about. I basically narrowed it down to last year...my Jurior year. I always thought that my senior year was supposed to be my best year & most fun. So far all it has been is a mess. A mess of crap, drama, heartache, assholes, smoking, sex & drinking. Ok to some people that may seem fun & just like YEea whooohoo lest party but it hasnt been like that for me. I got a job that is starteing to get irritating. Its like being at school where when one of us walks out the door the others inside talk a whole bunch of shit its STUPID! Im so sick fake people! And i am making an announcement! I am not looking for "Mr. Right" I need everyone to know that. Im not saying I wont date anyone, Im saying that if your looking for a committment from me to be exclusivly with you, you are looking at the wrong girl. I did the whole commitment & exclusive relationship thing for a long time. And when it ended i was the one who played & hurt becuz i gave my heart & got shit in return. So it wont happen agian. I have dated since but always compared them to my past & they have come out as no comparism & just left me dissapointed. Each one seemed to get worse. Either a bigger liar, biggar asshole, bigger nymph, & just full of more BULLSHIT than I am willing to put up with. I dont want to hurt anyone so if your looking for something serious, unless I say I am as of right now Im not looking for anything serious here in the OC. I need some time on my own now to just be & find out who I am& what I want to do with my life. So basically im saying that I am nolonger looking for Mr Right, but more for Mr Right Now. Becuz m thinking that when the time comes that Now part will just fade away.