I graduated from high school finally I thought Id be happyier. And funny thought as i go through my diary entries I realize im not rerally happy in any of them. im actually really pretty depressing. but maybe thats cuz I havent really had an acceptionally happy moment since my junior year. as much as I have had tons of fun...nothing has been the same. I do have good times good memories since that i will never forget but I miss butterflies. I miss so much but really what does missing anything ever really do to help things....it doesnt I have moved on but not moved on at the same time. I dont even know if that makes sense but w3hatever it makes sense to me. haha. I have someone new who treats me pretty good. i really care about him alot. Which says alot cuz i havent really cared for anyone besides one other so its sorta a big deal for me. But I feel like I constantly push people away because I dont want to go through it all agian. Im just scared. But im not ganna cry over any guy ever agian I cried over one for almost a year or so & for one for almost a year. Im so sick of crying. I dont even know if i can anymore.