Heres to whats coming...seriously. I have made the disicion that in just a month or so I am leaving for a cruise through europe and when I get back everything will be different. Im going to make sure of that. Mostlikely I will make sure everything is changed before I leave actually. Im starting a new chapter in my life things need to be different. My past is my past. Im cvlosing the door on all things unsaid & undone between myself & others. Its time to move on. EITHER START OVEROR LET IT GO That is just how I feel about things. Its not healthy to dwell on stupid shit that makes no difference now. Whats needed to be said will be said & thats that nothing more. No more holding back no more awkward silence moments when your ashamed to say how you feel. Straight upif you have somthing to say freaking A then say it! Im done trying to prove Im good enough, because gosh damnitt I know I am. Im not being cocky Im being honest.Im nolonger putting myself through hell & putting myself down for things I cant change.Shit happends thats life. People come &go in & out of our lives everyday thats never changing. Wecant hold on to something thats nolonger there. This is what I call closure...and I need it. A very special person to me told meonce that you need to go for what you want head on & if it doesnt work out then just walk away dont ask why, you dont need to know why.you just need to know its done. I really get it. Ive said I got it before but never reallydid even tho I thought I did I didnt. I do now. I understand there isnt always a reason why some lieof an explination, some last time...It doenst work that way. Once a desicion is made its made. Theres no going back. Plus It only gets harder the more that you know...or see.