I have officially decided to give up. I nolonger want to care about anyone. In the guy sense. Im too fucking tired to put any part of myself on the line & it will be a while until Im able to agian. I fell in love, gave all my heart & lost evrything & got nothing in return. So I thought but the truth is i did get something in return....I have the memories. the memories that haunt me of how I once was & how we once were. im okay no though because im nolonger that girl & we are no longer us. I wont cry when I miss you becuz im numb to you now. I wont care that it may hurt u to know im going home with someone else tonight cuz i know u dont care that it might hurt me to know u are doing the same... Im numb to everything.....or atleast thats how it seems. you are right its my senior year. I will be okay cuz I am okay. I will find someone new i know cuz ive already had someone new. And i know more will come. I know my life will begin another chapter when I graduate and start college becuz my life really began when i grauated jr high & went to high school. with each ending I know comes a beginging. Everythiing happends for areason. I dont regret anymore, I dont regret meeting you or being with you or loving you or even being loved by you. Its good cuz i think that someday I will accept our friendship for what it is. And maybe realize that a real friendship is just as important as a realtionship...