Lifes weird for me at the moment, as always but so many different things are hapening and everything's kinda a mess. There's this guy im into and he's...different. He doesn't worry about what people think of him, he doesn't follow the crowd he's just himself. We talk but not heaps and i don't know what it is about him we just click. We've been friends fo like YEARS, since we were like in year 5 and i've always just seen him as a brother, but now, i dunno. I'm really confused, then there's this other guy. we were kinda going out fora while, but then i had to call it off. He lived in rainbow, which is like 500km away from melbourne (where i live) and i was scared. He doesn't actually know this but i was scared for both him and me. I think i liked him to much, i scared the distance would drive me crazy, scared that i might break his trust, scared to loss him so i just let him go. I surprised myself cos im always the type of person to comfront a problem head on, but this time i hid from it. Simon if you ever read this, i dunno wat to say except for sorry. keep smilin Leah xoxo :)