Ok well im trying to lose it but u no when u try so hard to keep something safe and it gets lost, well the opposite is happening to me. The thought that i could be prisoner to this feeling until i see him again is KILLING me, if i continue to have this im afraid of what i'll do, im trying but things aren't going to well, people say i should talk about it, but to who, i just end up babbling anyway and they zone out and it proves to be a waster of their time and mine. Ok stop it, thats it i hate this i'll keep it to myself, even from u guys from now on....