I'm not feeling anything right now. I was talking to a friend of mine today that i haven't spoken to in ages. He was all really up himslef and selfish. I was trying to show him how he hurts other people and he wouldn't listen. It's all abouthow he looks and how people see him. He's to worried about himself to relise how many people he makes to feel like shit. I really hate it when he's like this. I mean he's been like my 2nd brother in the past and it's not like him to be like this. I accept that he's changed but he's told me himself that he puts on an act at school to be accepted. I dunno im really lost on this one. I can't help but wonder which Darren's which. Antoher thing im confused about is Nick. I really like him and i kinda know that nothings gonna happen cos he's got a gf that he loves (apparently) but then today it was really different. I mean Donna turned round and said 'what is it with nick he's been checking you out all lesson' I thought donna was just over reacting but we flirted a bit and i dunno he's a bit of a rebel kind of and i can't see him even considering someone like me. I've liked guys before but this time its different. Different in every way possible and it's kinda more exciting. Well im out, lacking sleep Lover ALWAYS Leah xXx