Lately i've been feeling like im not really here, like i dont really exist. Life has kinda just past and i feel like im watching, watching everything thats going on. Laughing at myself. I had a d&m with a friend on friday and i thought it help but still i feel dead. Has my life really lost all meaning or am i dreaming, imagining everything. Every detail. Someone pinch me, i dont like feeling like this anymore, i never did.