I hate that i'm like this. I promised myself i wouldn't let it get like this, that i'd never let my friends down and that i'd never treat them like i didn't care about them because I knew how it felt and it sucked. Well somewhere down the road I got tired, or maybe depresed, and for some reason everything just irks me. I don't like being like this and i sure as hell don't plan on staying like so. I pretend that when I hurt somebody or I act like an utter bitch to one of my friends that it doesn't effect me when I get a sour response in return but it does. I pretend like I don't want to cry but I do, and it sucks. It just doesn't seem like any of the friends i've had since grade school are going the same direction as me, but maybe I'm wrong, maybe I'm the one who is straying away from them P.S. I found out last friday that Matt Voercher died. That's two in two years. I must have a world record.