So, let me attempt to repost what I was saying...gonna put down the phone now and not talk to my love of my life that I am attempting to mend ailments with, and the reason for this post...*sigh* I'm tired, I'm worn out. My brain physically hurts. I mean, really. I now even have to re-think what I thought and typed into words that I felt finally put my emotions and thoughts of the past few days at rest. After this weekend, I am going to be 100% selfish. I rarely do this and I hate to when I do. I'm going to take a break from all things human interaction-based. I just need time to myself and my thoughts for 12 hours or whatever I get when I don't sleep. After dealing with very necessary discussions through yesterday, last night, today, and tonight, I need to relax and clear my head. I want what was discussed to sink in and really take root. Sleep might help, huh? I feel as if I am a structure and that I have been ripped from my foundations suddenly. I must do everything I can myself to keep this structure together so that I can return back to the foundation I know and dearly need to survive. At the moment, that foundation is part of what is testing my structure. I do need to remind myself that I should rely on myself always more than anyone else. (breaking at this moment to Copy all the text I typed) I may be short tempered in the near future, as I am taking more extreme messues to alieviate problems that are shaking my foundations. Just smile and go about whatever. Just know at some point, we all need to ignore the voices in our head and all the voices around it. I just can not get away from that which is causing me grief, no matter any physical, emotional, or mental distance. Maybe if I try harder I can. Man, this is no where near what I typed the first time...but at least a small part of it is here. (Copy text again)