i would say at least sixty percent of the time. that's generous, i have the sneaking suspicion it's a much higher number than that. and it's getting to you. you're an emotional wreck, that refuses to admit your problem. you just got in trouble, why are you trying to hide drug use the next day? i don't like watching you fall apart, and there's not really anything i can do because anytime i try to talk about it you don't change, i don't feel like you even listen. and you lie to me about what you're doing. so what am i supposed to do? just let it happen? i've seen you cry so much lately. i remember when i wasn't convinced you only got high so you would feel okay. when i thought you did drugs for fun, now i'm pretty convinced you need them, and you don't think you can be okay without them. i hate it. & i'm really scared, and it's getting pretty clear i'm losing you. not just to your constant drug abuse, but to the people who support and provide them for you.