it's that i can't bring myself to acknowledge you. i even tried, and it came out all soft and broken. it's too much for me to be near you, knowing that no matter how much she cried over how bad you hurt her, she still picks you over me every time. that anymore i feel like i don't mean a thing because you're so number one. even if i get told you're not. it tears me up, that i've heard all these horrible things about you, and you're still better than me to her.