I'm dying in a crap load of homework. math, AP this AP that, Chemistry, even fucking photography im soo stressed this year. i need a freaking break. seriously im already losing my mind and we're only two weeks in. I dont know how im going to take this the whole year! I really have to buckle down and just suck it up!. I just need to find a way to do my homework and be organized but still have a life! i know thats asking a lot especially with the coarse load i took this year but im already on a roll because i got a b on my ap English essay when most of the class got c's and 70 was the lowest you could get on the essay soo im proud. I should start by going to bed early you know? i want a boyfriend?Really i do.I feel like everyone has one but me. am i missing out on a crucial teenage experience?if im not i feel like i do.I just want one to have one.wow im going to stop talking about that subject now. i can always count on sitdiary as a place to vent,to let all those stupid a clouded thoughts out. Even though sometimes i will be gone for a period of time i know this will always be here. Waiting. Just ready to listen. When im surronded in a world where all i do is listen and help and give advice. I just want someone to listen,just listen. I dont need advice im pretty independent. No one listens anymore. Everyone is too wrapped up in their own issues to care about anyone else. I may sound bitter but o well. it needs to be said. Maybe its just me who wants people to just shut up and open their freaking ears. ive said my peace for today. loves.