There are a few songs that I feel

have the power to put me back together.

Songs that illuminate my fears and

force me to cry out the toxins that cloud

my body. I go through waves.

Waves of complete and utter self

awareness. Waves of indifference to

my own body and the person I've become.

This ebb and flow eventually ways on me

untill one day-- its like i wake up from a slumber.

After days, weeks, months of instability

masked by laughter and smiles-- I wake up

and hate the girl who looks back at me in the

mirror.

Do I even know her anymore? Is she apart of me?

Against me?

My realization sends me into a spiral.

I have to fix everything. All at once.

Everything. But its impossible.

I crash. I burn.

But then one of these songs comes on..

it goes through everything---

my body, my mind, my soul.

And rejuvenates me and puts me back together

whole.