I finished the math homework. did the science did everything i should of. but feeling this accomplished still makes me feel like im missing something. like i forgot to do something. o well. the love life is dry as a sandwich with no condiments. apparently i cant tolerate someone liking me back so i push them away cool huh. ive got relationship issues and have i actually had a meaningful one? no, i mean i have all the time in the world whats the rush to feel every experience there is to feeel. im tired of everyone rushing everything cant we just slow down. Everyones in a rush to experience love, life, sex. everything but why!. Cant we just live life the way we're supposed to.Going one step at a time taking everything in as much as we can becuase its never going to be like this again?We're young, why do we want to become so old so fast. It stupid because once your old your going to wish that you'd taken your time and that you were young again. so im not in this rush that i used to be to get a boyfriend. who wants one?! who needs one?! haha well some people well right now in my life i dont need one and dont care for one either. I need to get my life in oder. its so hecktic. I want to go to a good college, make my parents proud of me. I want to be proud of myself. What do i care about all these people who walk the walls of my highschool. 98% of these people im never going to talk to again. 98% of these people i dont want to talk to now haha. they can suck and shove it where the sun dont shine. And all these lameos who care about how their GPA is are lame. ITS ONLY FOR COLLEGES TO LOOK AT. once you get in to college who the fuck is going to care if you made the deans list every year!. Your job isnt going to look at what your highschool GPA was soo chill. dayum.. im a vernter today yeah? haha i lovelovelovelove sitdiary. id be no where without you. Samantha