basically i have no idea whats going on and i feel like a chicken with their head cut off. i just wanted everything to happen and now its going wayy to fast. and i thought i was ready and i kinda think i am but i think moe is going to ask me to homecoming on saturday dance may not be his thing though so i could care less but i just wanted to go so i could see what it was like. Since i didnt go last year. is it bad that in the back of my mind im hoping Robert will ask me to homecoming before moe does. He makes me nervous now and when i think about him i get all jumpy and weird. oh its all messed up. i feel stupid next to robert sometimes like what im saying isnt significant enough. i dont know. i kinda want things to just happen and for me not to realize untill they do. i dont want to do the whole waiting by the phone thing or the whole lovey dovey thing i love those movies no doubt but when it comes to real like that just now who i am. Im scared to hold hands with a person im scared of that first real meaningful kiss. i really do play games, i was all talking to moe last night then idont talk to him at all today i talked to robert alot today beucase he came into the same jag place as me. Today i knew moe was coming out of P.E and i totally saw him wayy back inthe crowd and guess what i did! just guess!. I ducked and ran the other direction. more like speed walked and hid in the bathroom for a couple of minutes then i went to class and when it was over i waited for RV god im a horrible person. im reminding myself of kristen. its disgusting, later hoes. samantha