Parents and I got into an argument again. I never win and I never will. My words are like dirt. Probably not going to have a God damn future... they always hold me down and hold me back. Everyone around here does. I'm always wrong and never have any one to talk to that agrees with me. I guess I'm just always going to be wrong, but it would at least be nice to not be lonely, too. I hate it. I've been working and doing my homework for 12 and a half years for a mediocre future. I wish I'd never done a worksheet. Wish I would have had fun like all the other kids that went out and got trashed every weekend because it wouldn't have cost me a single nonexistant hope or oppurtunity. Not one thing I've done was worth the effort when everything is futile. I honestly wish I'd just goofed off and been a different kind of fucking idiot, because at least that kind of idiot would have been happy.