Do you ever just have one of those days when you don't want to talk to anyone, see anyone, or anything? Today was one of those days. I thought bad things and was generally ill. I wanted a break from everthing. Me day but will that day EVER happen? I have a feeling not. Today was a very eventful, almost dissapointing day. I hurt my freakin' foot for one and dread walking on it tomorrow but then it was weird too cuz I was dissapointed in so many different ways that I can't describe. It was just like, wait....why'd that have to happen and why do you have to do me up one more level? Why do you push my buttons?< yeah that's the one I've been looking for. Why do you push my buttons? My buttons are small and sometimes you can't even see them but why do you make them bigger and press them over and over? I had my good moments through out the day but then they would be ruined with my bad thoughts or dissapointing words from others. Geez...what a cruddy day. I still have work I have to do and it's 10:45-my bedtime precisely. I'll be up for another 45 minutes at least. Less sleep for me! greaaaaat. Why can't it be a friday night when I don't have to talk or see anyone? Please give me patience until then! I have a large feeling that I'll need it so I won't blow a gasket on someone who doesn't deserve it. I need sleep lol. Tomorrow is another day.... Leave 'em....or don't that's okay too.

I know it's seriously been a long time but I don't really feel like going back cuz I've done a lot of stuff. Today is a Saturday. I went for my homecoming pics at 11 then came home,ate,took a nap,cleaned,ate again and now I'm bored. I probably wouldn't be bored if I hadn't have gone and had the best friggin' weekend ever. I went Thursday to Wake and went to the bball game. It was great then I stayed the night with Andrea and ate with her and it was really nice to catch up with her. Then I got to spend some more time with the greatest guy,Nathan :). It made me see how much I really love him and how much I love being around him. It makes things so much better when I get to see him,talk to him,do fun things with him, kiss him, hug him, everything. Andrea and I talked about what college I wanted to go to and honestly, if Wake had a better education school then I would try to go there. She talked about Greensboro being really close but I don't know if I want to go there. Looks like a crap hole. I'm just so afraid of losing him. Our relationship has grown into a serious love that is unexplainable. He's my everything. Then when I think of me going to a different college and maybe seeing him less than I do now, it really depresses me. I don't want anything to change. I just want to be with him and for us to be together and grow together more. I know that that's in 9 months and that's a while off but these past 3 years have gone really really fast. All I can do though is savor the time I have with him, just like I've been trying to do although I often seem that I don't. I can't wait to be out on my own but I'm afraid of changing and being away from him even more. I'm so scared. I'm so deep in love. -Blondie-

It's been a long time since I've written but i've been EXREMELY busy. We had prom which was a lot of fun. Then I went through AP exams which I'm not sure how i did. Crappy probably, then school started to come to an end. John, my friend, his dad committed suicide through out this time too. He was good friends with Aaron which I know made it so much harder for him. He hasn't let go yet but I pray for him. I could never imagine the pain he is feeling. Then we had dance team try-outs again. INSANE! It's gonna be A LOT of work this year. 5 new people and it's gonna be really hard compared to the past years to get everything together. We have our 3rd practice today, whoop-te-doo. It's gotta get smoother as time goes on. I think I might go a little early too to practice my tech. stuff. We had graduation last night and I was a jr marshall. It was very....interesting. We were up on stage and then miss drama queen Ashleigh decides that she's gonna faint on stage and boom she does. How exciting i know. It was sad though to see so many of my friends leaving. It was also kinda scary cuz this means that I'm up next....ahhh!!! After graduation we went to eat with Christina's family(nathan) then went over to Loretta's to swim. It was fun except that Nathan wasn't feeling good at all. He had to go in to work really early this morning too. Speaking of jobs, I'm trying to get one at a daycare. I'd love to start soon but I haven't heard back from either of the 2 I applied to. One is Krista's parents place but I'll talk to her today about it at dance. As for all the exciting highlights of the past month or so, that's it. Very brief I know.Closure is beautiful.Leave sweet ones!~K~

Good gosh! 32 Freaking hits for my last entry!! How did that happen?!? I go from 2 to 11 to a dang 32!! Heck yes! That's great! I just wish I could get feedback from all of that so PLEASE leave it! It's been a while but I've been SOO busy! Soccer has been underway heavily as well as homework. We had spring break which was very relaxing. I didn't have a thing to do! But now I have everything. We had prom last night! woooo!! It was great. I'd like to think that I was looking GOOD in my dress. There was a girl who had my dress but she wasn't supposed to but I didn't have to see her so it was all good. I had LOTS of fun with my best gals-Krista and Patricia.We went out and ate at Ryans(not the megabar). It was fun. I got tons of pictures made and I can't wait to see them! But wouldn't you know that my brother decided to take the digital camara with him to the beach this weekend, leaving us with the old film camara to work. Mom can't center a picture so I'm sure they'll look pretty bad. Nathan looked VERY VERY HANDSOME in his tux. He's such a hottie lol. We went to Andrea's afterwards to eat and hang out. It was GREAT to get comfy. My feet hurt sooo bad. I've got tons of homework to do today though. I'm being lazy actually. I should be doing it right now but I'm not..UUGHHHH.School sucks I"m telling ya. I'm so excited though that I have a lot of hits, I'm hoping that if you come back and read this then you'll leave one cuz I like to get them! I gotta go do some wonderful homework.~Leave em' Sweet~

Well it's been a while since i've written an actual entry that's public but i've just had a few issues lately. Anyway, things have gotten better. Nathan and I are working on things and our love grows more and more each day. Time will move things along. I've been keeping myself busy though. Prom commitee, prom stuff,soccer,student council,classes,church, etc. have kept me going. Prom is coming up and gosh darn it if another girl has my dress. I went to david's bridal and no one was SUPPOSED to get it BUT they did but what do you do now?? nothing..ugh. It'll be okay though, I'll look better in it lol. joke~! Then soccer games have starteed up. We've won 1 and tied 2 so we have to work on our offense. OH yeah! I also had a great birthday!!! My friends are the best! They made me feel very special on my birthday and I also had a little birthday extravaganza the past weekend. It was great. I don't really feel older cuz my parents are still not giving me any extra privilages. I'd love to be able to drive out of town by myself. Plenty of my friends have but mom and dad wont' let me. UGH. They'll have to sometime cuz in close to a year I'll be driving to college back and forth on my own. Plus at church with Easter coming around, our youth is putting on a drama which we've practice for a lot. I've also got to dance on easter at church so i've got to practice for that. I just can't say "no". Ahhh that's what summer is about anyway. Speaking of summer, next summer mom and i are gonna go to europe! YAY!! London, the netherlands, france, switzerland, and italy! It'll be great!! Tiring but fun. I hope lol. I should write some more soon when more interesting things happen all at once! Leave me some! Cya

I Hope You Dance-LeeAnn Womack I hope you never lose your sense of wonder, You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger, May you never take one single breath for granted, GOD forbid love ever leave you empty handed, I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean, Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens, Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance, And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance. I hope you dance....I hope you dance. I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance, Never settle for the path of least resistance Livin' might mean takin' chances but they're worth takin', Lovin' might be a mistake but it's worth makin', Don't let some hell bent heart leave you bitter, When you come close to sellin' out reconsider, Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance, And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance. I hope you dance....I hope you dance. I hope you dance....I hope you dance. (Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along, Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder where those years have gone.) I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean, Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens, Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance, And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance. Dance....I hope you dance. I hope you dance....I hope you dance. I hope you dance....I hope you dance. (Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder where those years have gone) Time....sweet time...

As I go through each day, certain objects, songs,motions, etc. remind me of different people. Some more than others. I sat down to the large, humming computer to get online to see the weather, talk, and write on here. I always scan to see if anyone has written me a message and also how many "hits" I have for my entries. I have a surprisingly large "hit list" for "Goodbye Aaron". Maybe you people can relate easily, I hope not. Maybe you like to see suffering more in others.(Completely normal) That just struck me very odd that I'd have a larger hit list and a comment which I appreciated. Still that thought of him and the gun and his helpless self in the hospital haunt me in my mind. Little things throughout the day remind me of him and the memories we had. I play Scrabble, and suddenly I picture the time in my head that we played Scrabble in the library and Andrew beat you with a word that we had to look up. You couldn't believe it. Now...I can't believe it. I wore his shirt today with "ATM" on it and its reminders. You're really not here anymore. You're in the ground...you're up in heaven....you're all around maybe.... Now my mind is suddenly blank for once....the reminders go to a blank of nothingness. But still...there will always be reminders of YOU.

I and my friends are moving on very slowly but we are moving from his death. It's so odd. I kept saying to myself at his funeral that I shouldn't have to be here, doing this, burying my friend. I want to keep telling myself that he's only out of school sick and will be back tomorrow laughing in front of me. But he won't....it's never gonna happen again. How can that be? He's in a better place though. God is looking after him and telling him how much he's watched over him until that day. Maybe I'm still in disbelief...I don't know. It'll hit me though if it is. Time will tell. On a better note, I've been keeping busy with exams and what not. I think I've made straight A's.((Score!)) I'm happy with my accomplishments this semester.I've had church stuff too for the holidays. Less than a week and we'll be celebrating HIS birth!!! I love this time of year. Most people are so joyous and happy.It's fun and we don't have school. I danced today at church. It's kind of embarrasing but I'm glad that I have a talent that I can share God's love through. Nathan is home too. I've had a lot of fun with him. I fell asleep on him when he was watching the Panther's game which they lost...grrr. I can't wait until Christmas though. If I dont' write between now and then I hope you all have a WONDERFUL Christmas!!! God bless you all!

why..why would anyone go to the point of killing themselves to solve things..??Why? Aaron....my dear friend. IF you only knew how much people loved you then maybe you wouldn't do it. IF you only knew how much we thought of you and how cool you really were. Shooting yourself wasn't the answer...you really killed us. A part of us has died....not just you but us as well.I was glad I got to see you and tell you that I loved you.....I should've said it earlier. I'm sorry I didn't. I miss you so much.Never again will the term "alright" mean the same to me. NEVER.... Every class I had with you will never be the same. You sat near me in every class. There won't be anymore smart funny remarks to laugh about...You just have no idea how much you've hurt us. If we could turn back time we would do it.... But goodbye aaron.....may GOD be with you. I never wanted to have to say goodbye until I graduated with you but I'm afraid that I'll have to. Missing you a lot. I'll probably tell you more later.....all my love

Oh my...only 5 and 1/2 days left of this semester to bring up all my grades to all A's. AHHHHH!!!!! Chemistry-A minus exam grade (which is 25% of my grade) Mod. Dance-A++(how easy) English-Good gracious I have no idea...it better be an A though. US History- right at an A and I need an open forum or 2 to bring it up haha. I need these A's soo bad. SO BAD. THis depends on if I'm a junior marshall or not. I'm ranked 9th and they accept like 10-12 top people. Shew...stressful. I also have a buncha papers due and club stuff for Christmas. I need to get Christmas cards too and get them out before school ends. Man I gotta bunch to do. Nathan comes home Friday and we have a bball game then. YAY! Against all my friends from north. I told them all to come and hopefully root me on in my dancing RESPECT. Dang new girls don't know how to show dedication. I don't enjoy dance as much as before cuz no one is excited either. Shoot....do we have to ruin EVERYTHING?? OH well...i'm actually in a good mood cuz it's been pretty fun today. I've accomplished a lot. I love that feeling. Better get back to it though!! LEAVE EM!

It's probably about time that I put a public entry in huh?? Been awhile. I've had a few things that I needed to just vent or let out but in a private manner so I went ahead and did that. I have recently had some bumps in my relationships but everthing is panning out now. I have exams coming up soon..ahhh. I only have a chemistry one but that's enough. I've GOT to bring up my grades to all A's before then. CRUNCH TIME! Nathan is to come home a week from today. I need him here. It's so much better when I see him in person. The poor thing has been working his butt off with his classes and his exams coming up. Good news is that I've seemed to have gotten closer with some people in my classes. Mostly my guy buds but a few girls too. Classes are more fun now...right when it's suppose to end soon!! Oh well. I recently read CHADWRITES diary and omg....for one he's really cute and then second he has the writing ability of I don't know what. His writing inspires me and it's true too! His one on love was beautiful. Keep in mind that I'm not an avid reader and I rarely think of writing as a "beautiful" thing but that...WOW. I even emailed it to myself. Oh and by the way....LEAVE ME COMMENTS!!!!I feel like a loser. I notice that people read my entries but they never leave anything. I don't care who you are but just leave something please for my enjoyment! :) Catch ya later--and remember...leave it!

This weekend has been busy but yet so boring. Friday was pretty fun. I had homecoming to go to and give away my Sophomore attendant title to Meredith Wingler. She really deserved it. Then I went to set up at the dance after I changed. It was pretty boring and I felt bad for Krista cuz Daniel practically prohibited her from dancing with any guy. How gay....but that's okay I guess for her. I danced some. Not much. I only got to talk to Nathan that day for about 10 min. Then Saturday I went to Josh and Katherines wedding up in Boone. I was sooo foggy it creeped me out. AFterwards we went with Dwight,Loretta,and Sarah to Outback then went on home. That night was the worst. I didn't talk to Nathan until later around 10:45 or so for only 20-25 min. I know that he has so much to do but I feel like I'm losing him. NOt getting to talk to him and spend time with him is killing me. After we hung up a few tears fell from my eyes. I miss him.Knowing that I wont' get to see him next weekend hurts me too. We're both so busy anymore but when he's busy I try to stay busy so I don't hurt. I don't know if it's working or not. Today I went to church for the 2 hour service then I went to the Bumgarner reunion. I played with Jessica and Jared my 2 lil cousins. That was fun I guess. Then I came back to the boredom at the house. I'm now getting ready to go to church for youth. Let's see how much fun that can be! I better go so I'm not late. Leave me good ones....bye

Well after a boring 3 day weekend I had to go back to school. I took the SAT on Saturday which wasn't too too bad but we'll see how I did in a week or so. Then yesterday wasn't too bad either. Not a lot of work really. Then today we went to Career day at the college so that got us out of the main junk at school then tomorrow is an early dismissal with b-hawk buddies afterwards. I've been working my butt off with Student Council. Been going here and there to do stuff which makes me feel important but busy. I can't wait until Friday cuz Nathan should be coming home for his break!YAY!!!! I can't wait to see him. I'm so bored around here without him. I'm so dern crampy. I wish I wasn't. I really think that I should see if there's something wrong with me but it scares me some to think about that so I just drug up for a week and hang on. Well I guess I better get to reading and some work and I'll see if I can get some stuff done. Much love to ya'll. Leave me some....

Maybe it's just pms kicking in but i've been in a sad mood today. This morning it seemed that John and Emily just flirted back and forth the whole time in first which just pushed me to the outside. So when we got done dancing I just sat away from everyone to read and do homework while they just did they little mating ritual. Then I forgot that I had to go to church tonight so I couldn't go to the soccer game that I wanted to go to. So I practiced with Makenzie at church then came on home. I then talked to Nathan on the phone. Tomorrow is our 2 year anniversary...I hope he remembered. I hope he's done something surprising.....I could only send him a card full of niceness and love. I hope he at least did that. He surprises me sometimes though. Then I realized that even with a 3 day weekend I probably won't get to see him...ON OUR ANNIVERSARY WEEKEND! What a freakin bummer. I was at least hoping to spend a lil time with him, just to eat or something, ya know..celebrate our wonderful 2 years. Geez...dissapointment sucks. In order to get Nathan's Christmas present this year I realized that I'd have to get some money..fast so I've made a deal with mom and dad to do certain chores every week for 10 bucks. This is why I'm mentioning Christmas in early October cuz it's gonna be expensive this year..yup. I feel hazy in my world. I wish so much sometimes that I could shut off everyone else and just be in complete bliss in my own little perfect world. HAH who am i kidding?That'll never happen! A girl can dream. I need to exercise majorly too. I can see a roll beginning to develop at my mid section and I see my butt and thighs grow about 2 inches a day it seems. I feel lazy but when do I fit it in between dance,school,homework,clubs,and my other appointments? It's a crazy life I live. Oh and I was informed today that my mother and I use too much water when we take our showers so we would now have to turn the water off when we clean our bodies or we shave our legs....I feel like I'm poorer than dirt anymore. We need so much but now we're getting to the point of saving water??!! This is gonna be a prob when it gets nice and cold.....real prob. I'm gonna head on out. I need to clear my head. Luckily I get to sleep a lil longer tonight cuz of dream team. yeah...that's great.Night ya'll....leave me something..please.

Today altogether was an awesome day. Some parts bad...cough..school... but after school and I saw Nathan everything was great. I had tons of fun! It was his 19th birthday today so his family and me and my maw and paw went to eat at Monte De Rey. He got the sombrero pic n all!!! We ended up seeing some interesting people like Sarah and Sierra and Jacob G....I wish I could've stayed to see that reaction. HA! I didn't really talk to either one....both of 'em are stuck up their own butts. Didn't want em ruining my day. Then we went back to Loretta's house-Nathan's aunts- and had to cake and socialized. Well I had this fun idea to go scare Sarah(Nathans over dramatic cousin) and her friend Casey(she's real cool). Well Nathan ended up scaring her but that was when the fun began. The whole night revolved around joking with her and her ending up yelling through the house at everyone for small reasons. Nathan got her cell phone and was acting like she called her bf. He really didn't but she freaked and then went upstairs. Well from downstairs Nathan's other cousins-Jason and Daniel started prank calling her cell phone. Daniel acted like a gay person talking about her undies and junk. HALARIOUS! Then we turned the power off to her switches in her room. Her uncle told her to turn the lights off and stomp 3 times and it would work as a joke. Would you believe that the 14 yr old did it?!? LOL I haven't laughed so hard in so long! After our wonderful night Nathan and I kissed goodnight and headed on home for bed. It was great. I hope he had as much fun as I did! I love him but I just love his family to death...their great people! Well at school today I found out that I might not be able to apply for gov school. I didn't take AG in middle school so I might not be able to do it. HOW RETARDED! The only 4 people including me who actually want to apply are under that same stuff. I asked the guidance counsler if I could take the test to see if I am sometime but she said she'd have to check with the head honcho woman and check. Poor James was at the point of tears. It's been rough for him lately and Krista was so mad! She really wanted to go too and now she probably wont be able to. I feel bad too cuz in a way I wanted to go but when it's completely shot down over a stupid AG middle school thing then I just don't think it's right. Oh well. We'll see Monday if it all works out I guess. I want it to then I don't. It'll keep me from making the decision later if it doesn't but I just don't know..... Well I'm gonna mess around online for a lil while. Im so glad I actually had a good day! FINALLY! Much love...& leave nice ones!...or leave them for that matter! Bye

I have so many thoughts...especially today but I'm so so busy with school work I don't have any time to do it. I shall write as soon as I have time! AHHHHHHH I HATE SCHOOL! Working it up with the hw.....ergh. Leave 'em.

I wake up,turn off the alarm, rest a little, get in the shower, get out. Next dry hair,make up, clothes, breakfast, drive, first period. Then second,lunch,third,fourth. I then go different ways each day. Either to dance,meetings, or home. I then just hang around until I decide to eat and do homework then eagerly wait for time to either recieve or make a call to Nathan. Then I get my stuff ready for the next day, brush my teeth,wash my face and rest for the night. Over and over again each day. I'm bored by it really. I miss Nathan making each day a new slate for me. Im now forced to do things on my own and bore myself. I didn't realize how much I depended on him until he went off. I think each day of what exciting happened so I can tell him at night but those things seem to slip my mind when he calls. I guess the only good thing from it is that the excitement of his voice on the phone and the quality of our time together has risen. I've learned to savor every moment. I better get to that wonderful step in my day of homework. Bye-leave nice ones!

I'm not sure if it's that I feel so many things that they're going around and around so fast that I can't pick them out to work on it. Even if i could i'd probably be too tired to do it. I'm constantly pushed to do this and that. I have a paper due,project due,tests due,speeches due,dates due,decisions to do,and all in the meantime I'm suppose to be nice,friendly,cheerful,and act as if nothing in the world is wrong. I have no one but Nathan to tell everything to but I'm afraid that if I tell him, he'll feel as if he is overburdened by me and can find better people at college. I don't feel comfortable telling anyone else because they're either not close enough to me yet or they were and they're pulling apart from me. It sucks....a lot. Independence has always been a thing for me but when I get overburdened by problems and stresses I have to tell someone otherwise I go crazy and stress even more. I feel as if I'm letting others down(which i hate to do) as well as myself but I'm pushing and pushing but it's like pushing on a concrete wall. It doesn't move at ALL. It just stares at me and laughs in my face saying...you can't get by me or around or under. You're stuck...muhahhha. Geez ! Also, I feel practically friendless. I have Krista all the time....that's it. During break we wander around like little losers looking for someone to talk to. I miss having a group to talk to. All the people who are Seniors now seem to me like they are too cool for us now. They're not even around and if we talk to them then they ignore us or push us to the side. They aren't even worthy of the title of FRIEND. I don't want to be a loser Senior next year. I want to have the time of my life with friends but I can't without friends or at least close ones. I try to but it seems as if Krista doesn't want them. I don't know...im sure she does but i don't know. I want people i can have fun with so i don't have to worry about nathan. I miss him so much each day. I miss being able to talk to him everyday face to face. I long for his kiss at the end of each break and at the end of the day. I can hear on the opposite side of the phone each night how much fun he is having at college. He deserves it though....I want him to have fun but just not forget about me ya know??? I worry too much I suppose and worry about what others think of me. Should i??Does it make me any better or stronger??Heck...I dunno. Sometimes I want to say screw it all and just tell dad to pick a job somewhere in another state and we'll go but I can't. I don't want to leave behind the things that I do love and love me too. It's gonna be okay I know but I wish it would hurry and stay that way.....

The dreaded word that everyone can't stand to hear or experience....change.Makes me cringe at least.As I actually have time to think about things since I've been bored some I realize all the many things that have changed this past year of my life. It's really sad though because it is a drastic one only slow. I've changed many friends and seen many friends change themselves. Andrea, dear dear Andrea is close to the worst. It began with the Jesse break up then slowly went on. She got back in with the friends she used to hate and suddenly are the "best of friends" with them now. So I have resorted to the infamous "second hand friend". Boy is it great....psht. I miss the fun we used to have a lot. Now to go on, the most drastic change of them all. Lauren. I visit her sometimes...and I see the change more and more each time. She has turned into a "popular". Trying to please everyone around her and the image she seems to have to put out. Jesse, Emily, and Mallory were a huge part of this. Emily and Mallory did the looks and preppy attitude, as well as the sluttyness. Jesse just came in as the cool bf who screws his gf. He as well wants to go with the crowd and look cool. The Christian values have seemed to gone down so so much in so many people who used to be so religious. It just shows that you MUST keep the faith to succeed. On a more "planner" note. I got to go to the beach with Nathan and his family. It was a lot of fun. I really love his family. They're great people and so much fun. We went to Atlantic Beach. Nathan and I would have our romantic times each night out on the beach and riding around the silent coast. Really nice. I don't know what I'm gonna do next year when he's gone off the Wake. Make more friends I guess and try to stay a lil on them so I won't miss him so much. Krista and I can hang out since we'll be the cool kids with college guys. I'm gonna try to make an effort to get more friends too so that way I won't miss the ones that have turned their backs on me. It'll work out. I gotta go get ready for dance and work out. CAtch ya later. Leave em'

School ended, summer started. A sigh of relief shall we??((Breath in and breath out))Now don't we feel better?? I do! I ended up fairly well in my classes. A's in all but Biology heading up with a B. Yee freaking Haw.I'm just glad it's finished finally. Dance Team is starting up with our wonder dances. We've already completed our dance camp dance. It's rough right now and I still have to do 4 foutee turns with a double out. Not too hard you say?? Normally no but on an off day such as today yes! I can do them great sometimes but today was the crappiest. To move on to "news"-- Nathan graduated big bad West High ending as validictorian which was deserving over that pompus head Sarah. I use to like her but now she is just so...so...ugh. Words can't describe how horrible she can be. It went quite nicely except for the fact that it didn't seem to be his night. It was all about other matters. I just hate it when his expectations although their often not high of people since it keeps him from dissapointment, are shot down. I have to keep reminding myself to make it right for him somehow and remember that it's not my fault sometimes. Now granted it is sometimes but I have to be a shoulder to lean on when your shot down. He's decided to go to Wake. :) Go Deacs! Only 45 to 1 hour away. We just passed our 1 year and 8 month anniversary mark! YAY! The way I feel about him is so insane. I love him so so so so so much. It's hard to express to him that much love. We're doing good too. Andrea just got her license and of course is enjoying her new found independence. Ironically she only got to enjoy it for about 3 days. She left for Florida the other day then she comes back and goes to Govenors School for 6 weeks. LOL. Poor kid. Following in Sarah's footsteps. I just hope she doesn't get TOO close. She's dangerously there but heck I've already lost her. She's not my best friend as much as we'd like to still admit it. We're not even close.sad actually.Life goes on as it must. I better call to see what my wonder man is up to. I have to go babysit tomorrow bright and early. I'm excited though...I love the little boy. I'll catch ya later