Well, I'm here and I'm there. She's mad and he's happy with me. The world is spinning around me looking as if it were a whirl. I feel as if I should just give it up and change the whole plan. Move, give up, and just change completely but I keep fighting within myself to stay completely sane. It's hard I feel but I'm slowly getting there..slowly. Okay...now I'm sure that made no sense what so ever to all of you out there and it shouldn't so no worries!:) As we go back to reality--- I made dance team once again. I am also going to be serving as a captain. It's a bit overwhelming at the moment but will go down as we move along. It's almost summer for me. I'm worried about my grades. I need straight A's to really make myself and others happy. Phys Cond.-A English-A Alg. 2- B but I think will move up to A with exam and other grades Biology-C but I think has moved up to a B but I'm not really sure.:/ I want to be a junior marshall but I don't know with my class and the grades I get. Next year for the first semester looks okay. 1-Hopefully Mod. Dance or PE2 2-Eng 3-Hn 3-Chemistry-Hn 4-US history Cross my fingers and bear it is what I say. My exams are this coming Thursday and Friday. So in reality I only have tomorrow as real days of class. Thank goodness. Depressing news is that I won't be able to go back to Canipe next year. Things just don't seem to work out again. Dad is still without a job(stupid NAFTA), I, with no car, mom retiring, and me with school. I never liked the people...it was always the dance. I miss competiting with people. Dressing in cool costumes, smiling in front of people, entertaining, the adrenaline rush before you go out. Everything about dance I miss except for the people. I don't want to go to Tonya's cuz they suck with teaching and their technique is awful. I also don't want to be seen as a "trader" which I'm not. The company try outs are starting today. That's one thing I don't miss...the try outs. Excruciating! Still I guess that I'll miss the stress of it. I never thought I'd say that. Summer is on the way, a car is on the way, freedom is on the way....so much to look forward to that is so close but yet so far away. Irony is the name of that game. I'll catch ya later...