Maybe it's just pms kicking in but i've been in a sad mood today. This morning it seemed that John and Emily just flirted back and forth the whole time in first which just pushed me to the outside. So when we got done dancing I just sat away from everyone to read and do homework while they just did they little mating ritual. Then I forgot that I had to go to church tonight so I couldn't go to the soccer game that I wanted to go to. So I practiced with Makenzie at church then came on home. I then talked to Nathan on the phone. Tomorrow is our 2 year anniversary...I hope he remembered. I hope he's done something surprising.....I could only send him a card full of niceness and love. I hope he at least did that. He surprises me sometimes though. Then I realized that even with a 3 day weekend I probably won't get to see him...ON OUR ANNIVERSARY WEEKEND! What a freakin bummer. I was at least hoping to spend a lil time with him, just to eat or something, ya know..celebrate our wonderful 2 years. Geez...dissapointment sucks. In order to get Nathan's Christmas present this year I realized that I'd have to get some money..fast so I've made a deal with mom and dad to do certain chores every week for 10 bucks. This is why I'm mentioning Christmas in early October cuz it's gonna be expensive this year..yup. I feel hazy in my world. I wish so much sometimes that I could shut off everyone else and just be in complete bliss in my own little perfect world. HAH who am i kidding?That'll never happen! A girl can dream. I need to exercise majorly too. I can see a roll beginning to develop at my mid section and I see my butt and thighs grow about 2 inches a day it seems. I feel lazy but when do I fit it in between dance,school,homework,clubs,and my other appointments? It's a crazy life I live. Oh and I was informed today that my mother and I use too much water when we take our showers so we would now have to turn the water off when we clean our bodies or we shave our legs....I feel like I'm poorer than dirt anymore. We need so much but now we're getting to the point of saving water??!! This is gonna be a prob when it gets nice and cold.....real prob. I'm gonna head on out. I need to clear my head. Luckily I get to sleep a lil longer tonight cuz of dream team. yeah...that's great.Night ya'll....leave me something..please.