As I go through each day, certain objects, songs,motions, etc. remind me of different people. Some more than others. I sat down to the large, humming computer to get online to see the weather, talk, and write on here. I always scan to see if anyone has written me a message and also how many "hits" I have for my entries. I have a surprisingly large "hit list" for "Goodbye Aaron". Maybe you people can relate easily, I hope not. Maybe you like to see suffering more in others.(Completely normal) That just struck me very odd that I'd have a larger hit list and a comment which I appreciated. Still that thought of him and the gun and his helpless self in the hospital haunt me in my mind. Little things throughout the day remind me of him and the memories we had. I play Scrabble, and suddenly I picture the time in my head that we played Scrabble in the library and Andrew beat you with a word that we had to look up. You couldn't believe it. Now...I can't believe it. I wore his shirt today with "ATM" on it and its reminders. You're really not here anymore. You're in the ground...you're up in heaven....you're all around maybe.... Now my mind is suddenly blank for once....the reminders go to a blank of nothingness. But still...there will always be reminders of YOU.