I know it's seriously been a long time but I don't really feel like going back cuz I've done a lot of stuff. Today is a Saturday. I went for my homecoming pics at 11 then came home,ate,took a nap,cleaned,ate again and now I'm bored. I probably wouldn't be bored if I hadn't have gone and had the best friggin' weekend ever. I went Thursday to Wake and went to the bball game. It was great then I stayed the night with Andrea and ate with her and it was really nice to catch up with her. Then I got to spend some more time with the greatest guy,Nathan :). It made me see how much I really love him and how much I love being around him. It makes things so much better when I get to see him,talk to him,do fun things with him, kiss him, hug him, everything. Andrea and I talked about what college I wanted to go to and honestly, if Wake had a better education school then I would try to go there. She talked about Greensboro being really close but I don't know if I want to go there. Looks like a crap hole. I'm just so afraid of losing him. Our relationship has grown into a serious love that is unexplainable. He's my everything. Then when I think of me going to a different college and maybe seeing him less than I do now, it really depresses me. I don't want anything to change. I just want to be with him and for us to be together and grow together more. I know that that's in 9 months and that's a while off but these past 3 years have gone really really fast. All I can do though is savor the time I have with him, just like I've been trying to do although I often seem that I don't. I can't wait to be out on my own but I'm afraid of changing and being away from him even more. I'm so scared. I'm so deep in love. -Blondie-