The dreaded word that everyone can't stand to hear or experience....change.Makes me cringe at least.As I actually have time to think about things since I've been bored some I realize all the many things that have changed this past year of my life. It's really sad though because it is a drastic one only slow. I've changed many friends and seen many friends change themselves. Andrea, dear dear Andrea is close to the worst. It began with the Jesse break up then slowly went on. She got back in with the friends she used to hate and suddenly are the "best of friends" with them now. So I have resorted to the infamous "second hand friend". Boy is it great....psht. I miss the fun we used to have a lot. Now to go on, the most drastic change of them all. Lauren. I visit her sometimes...and I see the change more and more each time. She has turned into a "popular". Trying to please everyone around her and the image she seems to have to put out. Jesse, Emily, and Mallory were a huge part of this. Emily and Mallory did the looks and preppy attitude, as well as the sluttyness. Jesse just came in as the cool bf who screws his gf. He as well wants to go with the crowd and look cool. The Christian values have seemed to gone down so so much in so many people who used to be so religious. It just shows that you MUST keep the faith to succeed. On a more "planner" note. I got to go to the beach with Nathan and his family. It was a lot of fun. I really love his family. They're great people and so much fun. We went to Atlantic Beach. Nathan and I would have our romantic times each night out on the beach and riding around the silent coast. Really nice. I don't know what I'm gonna do next year when he's gone off the Wake. Make more friends I guess and try to stay a lil on them so I won't miss him so much. Krista and I can hang out since we'll be the cool kids with college guys. I'm gonna try to make an effort to get more friends too so that way I won't miss the ones that have turned their backs on me. It'll work out. I gotta go get ready for dance and work out. CAtch ya later. Leave em'