Well I am happy now, but not completely satisfied . I think it will take a long time to get there. But I feel I am making progress. Set up some goals and accomplish them slowly but surly.. If you rush things ,charces are they will crumble around you.I guess ,Summer's happier now that I can stay but I think she still feels that I will get apathetic about everything. I don't know can tell though the way she still loves me. Even though I feel I don't deserve her. I guess things are better for now. On another note Me and Summer played Phantasy Star online for Gamecube. It was good ,she is a Ranger girl and I am the Force Mage. I created her Character it's at level 20. My character is at level 41.I know 98 hours to bring up my Force. Yeah you think that's sad. Picture this Vin Deisel plays online Rpg's. Especially Dungeons and Dragons so let's not make fun. To think he talked about his character for 10 minutes on the tonight show with jay Leno. so yeah ....I like what I do even though it is exhuasting. And on the verge it being Phisycally sacrificial. I'll take pics of burns and cuts later or not well see. But I guess that's all for now... Logging off-