well i feel not gewd @ all! - things still arnt going well with shane! nd yea maybe i should just give up! but then life has so much ahead of you and i want 2 see wat i culd achieve but i just dont c the point! i have a walk bridge directly infront of my house about 10 metres away! should i or shouldnt i! i mean one minute im freekn on top of the world n tha next i feel like im stuck in a dark/deep whole or sumthing n no one can free me! - i wana be myself again - happy, always there 4 ppl, bubbly, confident, n lotsa utha things but all i feel now is depression n tht im worth nuthing! well maybe i am nuthing! i dunt kno! *SIGH* i feel crushed like i cant breath nd tht peoples amusement is walking all over me and making me feel awkward! with shane - sorri aint guna make it better nd ive learnt tht! ive supposably hurt him twice! nd he cant take anymore of it so he aint talking 2 me! nd yea i feel like shit becuz of that! *sigh* take me away! :'(