[30]Nervous

by lana
Feeling: neurotic
well today school was pretty good! i mean i had a sleepover lastnight! eeeee on a school night how kewl lol!:P haha im really nervous! cos tonight my dad is comming over to talk to me with my mum and i know its not going to go good because it is to discuss my punishment about "my past" and the text messages from that awful person! argh! i am so nervous!:( - cos when these talks are over i always get upset and depressed and suicidal and i dont wanna get like that cos i like the way i am now!! *sigh* im so nervous
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Hey I hope the talk goes well. I was planning on writing you a longer msg, but i have to go eat. But when I can remember what it was I was going to write, I will do.
Flick
[Anonymous]
A man who i didnt know used to text me saying he was gunna find me and rape me and i got really scared. I think i was only about 13. I couldnt even walk down the street.
Dont get suicidal. Its does nothing for you. I havent even tried suicide and i cut all the time. Suicide isnt the way to get away from it just leaving a bunch of loss ends. Just hang in there. Everything will be ok.
hey Lana, I hope youll be ok im sure you will be xoxoxoxox
take care sweetie you rock and are the coolest friend ever!
ciao
kate
Yea, im alright thanks. You?
I wont leave as i have had lots of comments (2) that tell me not to leave. So i will stay and just say that i wint be updating as often. And i dont even know why i wanted to leave considering this is the only place where people will acually like me for who i am.

So im staying. Yay!!!

~~Frostie
Hey Lana!

Dont worry. I'm sure it will be ok :). They are your parents after all and they wont do anything terrible to you :).

If you need a talk and i'm on msn just msg me. Sorry I was sleeping this morning when i got your msg :(. Otherwise comment me to death ok? ;)

Take care sis!
thanks 4 the comment, i wish i could say that i did write it, but its actually a song by zug izland, theyre a pretty new band. all my poems are at razrsharptears if u want 2 see them. ttyl,

brandi
[Anonymous]
hey well im back it was pretty fun but yea love shawna
[Anonymous]
Don't worry so much. I'm sure you'll be fine. If you start to get depressed, then look at pictures of good memories that you've had or your baby pics... they'll make u laugh! Reading inspirational bible verses helps too. Just remember that God will be with you tonight. Picture him holding your hand and helping you thru it and you'll be fine.
[Anonymous]
hey lana! i hope the whole talk thing works out...dont get too stressed out about it...like someone else said their your parents and they love you, and so do alot of other people.
[Anonymous]
awe no don't be so sad...just sometimes we have to deal with the consequences of our actions...please don't get suicidal...not good, always think positively and look on the bright side of thigs. There is always a bright side, trust me. Have you read the entry i was telling you about? trust me, it'll help you so much, and yeah...just trust me, read it. Just remember everything happens for a reason, and God works in mysterious ways. u'll be fine.
love your big sis...gotta listen to your big sister. :P (I'd never judge you only love you)
lol I remember you saying you were 13 so I figured you had done that :P. It's cool, I hope you have a great birthday in a few days time lana!!

I'm really glad things didn't go so bad. I knew they wouldnt :). Have a great day ok? good!

Take care sis!
Rich