great so i think im having a mental breakdown or something... for the past few days ive become disociated by anything and i dont feel real. i mean we had people over on sat for dinner n the entire time i was trying to hide the fact that im feeling "fuck what the HELL is going on? am i even here?" and now its just getting worse, it used 2 be usually every time i touched my face n i dont know if im at home or where. but now its constant...i dont know what the fuck is going on or if im even typing this at all. and you know what 2 days ago my mum came up to me n said "your not cutting anymore are you?2 "no mum" "look me in the eyes and promise" and you know what i did, i lied so fucking badly without any guilt about it shit i dont know whats happeneing with me. livv