right so im not putting any names but at a party this w/e my friend A wanted to self harm even tho shes not a self harmer just coz she was pissed off. so me n my friend e (who r both self harmers) spent the entire night trying to talk her out of it...i took a lighter from her hand when she was so drunk she didnt even notice. but i later burnt myself with a menthol fag so at leats it smelt nice lol but i could do it too much coz people came to look for me. so later A was siting with some other people n the boys were being cocks n doing a whole "whose the most macho" thing by burning themselves with lighters...so a wanted to do it, so the only was i could try n prevent it was to get burnt myself...on my left arm in a place where i cant cover it without looking suspicious...so im screwed for when i go on hol next week. later i found out that e had been in the loo for ages so i knocked n knocked till she let me in. she had taken a knife from the kitchen n was cuttin herself n i pleaded with her to stop but she said she could either do a lil now of do loads the next morning so i sat with her to make sure she was ok n i was so pissed that i did some too, even tho she pleaded with me not too. it wasd the same feeling for both of us. so there we were in this bathroom which musta only been like 6" by 4" so it was teeny, trying to console eachother while selfharming so the party was SHIT. a knew she shouldnt have come coz she knew it was gunna be bad before hand. but i still feel sorry for her. i want her to be ok, but she wont listen to me. so now ive screwed up my arms for my hols n i have no excuse... fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck n im worried about rach!! does anyone know anything about her? where is she n how is she?? liv xx