for some reason today i have no feeling i just feel so over it and i just want to be so over it but i can't well any way summer has been cool so far i think and just you know keep going and thats what makes me happy kinda not really i am really becomeing a person i don't know at all i mean all the things i have been agianst i have givin in to like the name of the diary givinitallaway yeh well i have and all my gaurd and brick walls have come crashing down and i have nothing left i feeel gay!!!! gay! gay! no means to get the REal Gay people anal but yeh i have no idea what i am sayin okay so i liked this one guy and i was into him you and he led me on and i knew him for one day and i was head over heels for him and them boom o0o i have a girlfriend and then i add him on myspace and i read his Gf's profile 2years and some that is so crazy i don't even know what to think i just am hating hating it but i had to get over that now i am but the thing that is the worst is that i am so into ben and it hurts because i love ben but it just can't work out between us just because he gettin old and sooon he is gonna leave just like every one everyone always leave and the ones that love me back will come back but will him i don't think he will shit is laMe heylo i am maycie and i AM LAMe!!