I'm sorry! Damn it all to hell and back. I broke up with Jake. I did. It is over and I feel like shit. But I think it felt weird. It was different. Maybe. "The walls have eyes," said my dad. He called the school and now hes got people (administrators) spying on me and shit. Then my mom said something about sending me to Hawthorne, I wasnt really listening but then she said, "... and you'll never see Jake again." So I took any satisfaction that they (my parent) could possibly get and flushed it down the fucking crapper. Ha! A victory at the expense of happiness. Oh, well. Sacrifice, and all that, I guess. But maybe its for the wrong reasons..... Shit. I dont know.