This morning was so crappy. Brett told me that his former gf, Jenna, was holding hands with Jake. My boyfriend. He told me that this happened before the two of them (Brett and Jenna) had broken up. Like two days ago, or something. At church. She also told him that she could not promise him (Brett) that nothing would happen between her and Jake on the Canada trip. That is why they broke up. After I found that out, I started wigging out. I was curled up in a semi-ball on the bus, crying. And now Jake is on his merry way to Canada. With Jenna, presumably. They're both in band but I don't know whether or not they're on the same bus. Oh, and Jenna let Heather Rome read a note to her from Jake. Heather said that it said something about how Jake liked Jenna but did not want to hurt me or whatever. So, second period I finally got a hold of Jake (Thanks Michelle, for the use of your phone) via Rick's phone number. (Called Rick's phone, let me talk to Jake) I asked him, "What's going on with you and Jenna?" He said, "Nothing." I want to believe him but I am so scared. I don't want to lose him. Friends have been telling me to dump him. Forget about him. But I can't. I won't. I feel like I'm going to die. I want to. Oh. And another thing. If Jake likes Jenna, why'd he let us get back together? Whywhywhywhywhy? O me miseram!!!