I cannot help but wonder if I did the right thing by breaking up with Jake. I often feel lonely and bereft. Mostly when I see him. It's like someone has stuck a knife in me and is twisting it. If I could I'd cry. But I have not. I can't bring myself to try and Talk to him. I'm scared. I don't want to know what he has to say and yet I do. Mac says I miss him because I am used to being in a relationship with him. I hope she's right.