I woke up with a voracios appetite for my boyfriend's company. But after the cloudy, sleepiness cleared, I realized that Jake had dumped me. Oh, oopsie, I forgot. Fuck. I saw him Saturday. I went with Lindsay to some band thing in Interlachen. So it's a given that he was there. It gave me a chance to just sort of look at him without him really noticing. But I think he did. It's pretty hard to miss someone staring at you. Maybe. Okay, it is hard to miss unless you're looking at them too. I doubt he was looking at me on purpose, though. I mean I never went to a band thing while we were still together. So I imagine he was a bit surprised to see me there.... I saw him toting around a little kid. I wonder whose he was..... Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! It hurts so BAD!!!!! I can't take it!! I miss him and I don't don't DON"T want to. Fuck.