This is my anti-charming entry. Or whatever I wanna call it. My opening up entry where I say stuff that I would probably just keep private...but I can't keep all my feelings bottled up inside. Where I'm gonna swear openly! Woah! So not this diary, but it'll get over it. I've figured out what I seriously hate. When most of my friends are in love & have a serious boyfriend/girlfriend. I know I shouldn't hate that, like I am happy for them and everything...but then all they talk about is how much they wanna be with their boy/girl friend. & then they spend all their fucking time with that person. And forget about their fucking friends. It really pisses me off. Like maybe once in a while they can stop worrying of his/her boy/girl friend is cheating on them or something along those lines. It drives me bonkers....Nobody that is SOOOOO in love with you would cheat on you! They need to fucking realize that is what LOVE is about. Or maybe I'm just jealous cos I've never had a serious boyfriend. It's not my fault every fucking guy that I like doesn't like me back. My friend Justin had an entry in his Xanga about that. He is soooo right. That when you like somebody they NEVER like you back. Except for Willy. He's the exception to the whole thing. But he ended up completely lying to me and shit...I miss him though. It's really easy to admit that I miss talking to him. But I've moved on. I only like Willy as a friend. Now I like my friend Eric, and I've liked him since sometime during 9th grade. But what do I figure out from Justin: HE HAS A GIRLFRIEND. Go figure. But my other friend Dan gave me some advice to not get up. So, I guess I won't. Until I find somebody that actually likes me for me.