well i havent updated for a couple days. not like it really matters but whatever.
wednesday me and tara went on a walk. then she wanted to go swimming and i knew my mom would say no.. and she did.. and i told her i wasnt 10 and it was summer and she was like fine do whatever you want. so i went to taras and we swam forever. then i ended up staying the night. her and tim got in a fight. so i just talked to tanner all night.
thursday i came home around noon took a shower. tara came over and we went to my ortho appointment. then we went to wal mart for her mom and went to wendys. tanner timothy and benji said to stay there cause they were coming. so we stayed there forever and talked to them which it was hotter than shit.. then tanners car wouldnt start so we jump started it. then we left. came home and stayed in my room till around 6:30. then me and mom went to the after prom meeting at the park. kendra was there. which made me happy. then katie and tara showed up and none of us really payed attention.
there was a dog that was in heat and she got in a fight with lucky.. then when i got home from the meeting she got in a fight with harley. that wasnt pretty cause hes a big dog. so yeah.
then tara came to my house cause she had to shit and people were in her bathroom.
then when she left i cried for like 3 hours cause i started thinking about max again. lately i just havent been able to handle it. but nobody gives a shit about that.
today i have just layed upstairs all day long. i havent felt like seeing ANYONE. i just wanted to be left alone. which is odd cause usually i want SOMEONE to be there. but not today. i just wanted everyone to fuckin go away. im tired of so much shit.
I just want you to know
That I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through
And then theres nights that never end
I wish that I could believe
That theres a day that youll come back to me
But still I have to say
I would do it all again
Just want you to know..
All the doors are closing
Im trying to move ahead
And deep inside I wish it was me instead
My dreams are empty from the day
The day you slipped away
Just want you to know
Since I lost you
I lost myself
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
but without you all im going to be is
Incomplete
Krysten
Bailey
*ashlee jo*
and, i dunno, it kinda hurt...
so i guess that makes me mean too...lol
plus, i know this guy. hes an awesome friend, but when it comes to dating girls...its totally different. hes a player, hes always got 3 or 4 girls around, he cheats on his girlfriends, and he doesnt really care about them, like, when they break up hes just like 'whatever' and moves on to the next girl...i dont want that to be her :(