well.. i decided to write about my dream last night (it wasnt pleasent)... i had another dream about my dad... it was gay like always... i have the same dream every time... cuz before he past away me and him always talked about getting new dirtbikes and traveling around racing and stuff... well anyways on to the dream... it started out that i found at him committing suicide was all a joke.. ( thats the good part) so i was so happy again... and we went to get dirtbikes... so we were att he dirtbike store and like we bought dirtbikes then we were going home... and we pulled up at my g mals house... (where he did it) and then so we walked inside and he was sititng on the couch and all the sudden he pulls out a gun and shoots himself... then i woke up out of breath and i didnt go back to sleep that hole night cuz i was so scared... i dunno why im having these insane dreams..i wish they would stop... maybe its becuz every night i think about him.... i dunno why i have to have bad ones.. i mean not saying i dont have good dreams about him... but maybe there is sumthin else 2 it... maybe thers unsolved riddles that he wants me to find out... i dont kno but i would like for it to stop... comment what you would like.. later all