i like that feelings faded dont know exactly how it feels but thats ok. i talked to him yesterday hes amazing and fun to talk to and my friend was walking to him n she said so you talkin to ________ and he said yea i am :D he smiled big for me, that makes me happy, he makes me happy, i really wanna be with him, and my friend really wants us to go out. for once everything is good and i wont let anything fuck this up! (yellowcard-october nights) i had a dream about him last night that we lasted a long time and we were perfect and it was a good dream i almost didnt want to wake up -not so numb PS: my mom might let me get a tattoo for my 17th birthday instead of having a party!