i lied i said i wouldnt think about seeing him today and its all i've thought about, i wanna call my girl and tell her and ask her what she thinks but she aint home n her cell aint workin, i dont know what to make of all this and its stressfull and i dont wanna work tomorrow:P i hate it there lets hope i get one of the other jobs i applyed for i just cant deal with it anymore there its bullshit! why cant i get him out of my head why is it that theres this picture of him holding the puppy beingg oh so adorable. arg why wont it go away i know i'm getting my hopes up something makes me think nothing is gonna happen i mean he hasnt written back or called me in regards to my email he hasnt been on in forever and i would call him but i'm nervous i dont know why guess i'm just a nerd lol. why wont he leave my head alone i really hope my kinki isnt lieing when she told me what he said i mean i couldnt handel that not after what the ex put me through i just dont know what to do!!!!!! arg i'm so frusterated i wish he would just ask me out and then we could be happy and all this confusing shit would be over with!!! -numb